Today it is finally here. Our last day in Germany has arrived! Tomorrow at this time we will land in our new home LA. Tomorrow a new chapter in our lives will begin!

Maybe this chapter will be the best one so far. Maybe it will turn out to be nothing but a nightmare. I have no clue what will happen in the next days, weeks, months and even years. But I do know one thing for sure! No matter what will happen, it was the right and the best decision to try this! I have grown so much in the 18 months since our Greencard win. I learned so much about myself, about my friends, my family and mostly about my husband! And I have learned that no matter what this will turn out to be, the most important thing is that you try to make your dreams come true! Dreaming is a wonderful thing, but making your dreams come true feels even more amazing!

So far Goodbye from Germany! Stay tuned for the most exciting part of our journey, which will begin tomorrow!

Yesterday I cried for the first time in this whole emigration process. I had to say Goodbye to one of my lovely girlfriends and it nearly broke my heart. I actually hold back the tears till I was out of the door. I didn’t want to cry in front of her, because crying makes Goodbyes so much harder. The worst thing is seeing how your actions hurt your friends and family.

On Sunday I had to say Goodbye to my brother, who is working in Hamburg this week. That was actually really easy, because my brother said that this Goodbye is not for long and that he isn’t afraid of not seeing me, because there are phones, Skype and we actually are only a 12 hour flight away. After that I hoped that most of my friends will be easy like that, but yesterday proofed me wrong. Even when you know that this Goodbye is not for long and that you won’t lose people for good, it just hurts!

After yesterday I am a bit scared of all the Goodbyes lying ahead of us. Today I will have to say Farewell to three of my girlfriends, on Friday we will meet Flo’s best friend and on Saturday I have to part from my grandma, my sister-in-law and my niece and nephew. I don’t know how many tears I will shed in the next days, but perhaps losing them now is not the worst thing. Because dealing with all this parting pain now might make the next weeks easier.

But still, for everyone who will have to part from loved ones soon: Do cry! It actually helps!

Yesterday we finally moved out of our flat. Yes, I actually mean finally, because the last weeks and maybe even months stressed me out a lot to live in this flat. I couldn’t just live there anymore. Every time I walked through the flat I counted the hours it would take me to sort and pack all that stuff. After four weeks of packing nearly every day, yesterday finally arrived and we packed 35 moving boxes and a few pieces of furniture. All our stuff fitted in 2 small moving vans.

Yesterday evening – after all the stuff was brought away – we moved in with my parents. We will now live in the small guest room with about 20 boxes of loose stuff that I have to pack into 6 suitcases within the next week. I actually feel good living here. I am not sad about giving up the flat, but still do not have time to be excited for the US. There is still so much stuff that has to be done before we board our plane on Monday.

Today we will drive back to our flat, pack a car full of stuff we left there and drive it to a refuse disposal site. It feels kind of good to have sorted our whole belongings and now only have left stuff that we want to keep for the next years. But seeing the 35 boxes yesterday I started to worry a bit. Do I really want to have this stuff in 10 years? Or will I have a flat in the US that is packed like our last one?