Posts Tagged ‘dream’

Everyone who moved to a foreign country once in his life, might already know what I want to talk about in this post. “those days” are the days that you never want to experience, but no matter how long you have been living abroad – it will always haunt you. Those days are the days, on which you ask yourself what the f*** you are doing. On those days you ask yourself, if you made the right decision and sometimes you even cry. I tend to have those days once every months or a little less. On most of those days I even wake up sad, missing my friends, missing my old life and just feel miserable.

On those days I cant really take myself seriously. Sure, I miss my friends and I miss my old home, but I dont want to change anything right now! I love living here, I love the new friends we found and I love our new life. But you kind of need to have those days because they make you realize that you left something important and that you still care.

I think I will never get rid of those days – and I might not even want to – but it helps a lot to understand whats happening. I actually got warned about those days by our friend Tanja. And now I would like to warn future emmigrants or people who might go through it right now. Dont let those days get you down. Dont let them ruin your dream! Just let them pass and try not to get to sad! Its natural to feel that way, it happens and sometimes it even helps me to not feel that guilty for leaving my friends and family behind.

I love you guys, I miss you and that will never change! No matter where I am!

Yesterday I talked to one of my friends, with whom I hadn’t speaken in a while. She asked me about how we were doing and about my feelings regarding my new life in the US. Sure, we think about this a lot and talk about it, but it feels different to talk about it to someone other than Flo. It kind of makes it so much more real. And it makes you kind of proud of yourself.

I have to say that we had a real good plan before we moved here. And that we had thought everything through so well. But even if we had luck on our side and everything worked out amazing so far, this was and still is a huge challenge. Maybe even the biggest challenge of our lifes! Every day you have to get yourself together again, go out there and do things you never thought you have to do again. You have to find new friends, you have to start a new job, a whole new life – and you have to do all of this in a new language! You find yourself in situations that leave you so sad. Like not having the network of friends you had at home. Not having your family close to come to the rescue whenever you need them. And just to be yourself, be brave and live!

Even if it feels strange to say this about myself, I am so proud Flo and I did this. And I am even more proud on how well we did it! I am beyond happy that we took that challenge and that we didn’t give up.

Please be aware: This is a dream. This is an amazing journey I would recommend to everyone. But it is hard! It is crazy! And it sometimes feels like being a kid again that has to learn everything new. But it is worth it! Definetely!

Today it is finally here. Our last day in Germany has arrived! Tomorrow at this time we will land in our new home LA. Tomorrow a new chapter in our lives will begin!

Maybe this chapter will be the best one so far. Maybe it will turn out to be nothing but a nightmare. I have no clue what will happen in the next days, weeks, months and even years. But I do know one thing for sure! No matter what will happen, it was the right and the best decision to try this! I have grown so much in the 18 months since our Greencard win. I learned so much about myself, about my friends, my family and mostly about my husband! And I have learned that no matter what this will turn out to be, the most important thing is that you try to make your dreams come true! Dreaming is a wonderful thing, but making your dreams come true feels even more amazing!

So far Goodbye from Germany! Stay tuned for the most exciting part of our journey, which will begin tomorrow!