Posts Tagged ‘family’

Everyone who moved to a foreign country once in his life, might already know what I want to talk about in this post. “those days” are the days that you never want to experience, but no matter how long you have been living abroad – it will always haunt you. Those days are the days, on which you ask yourself what the f*** you are doing. On those days you ask yourself, if you made the right decision and sometimes you even cry. I tend to have those days once every months or a little less. On most of those days I even wake up sad, missing my friends, missing my old life and just feel miserable.

On those days I cant really take myself seriously. Sure, I miss my friends and I miss my old home, but I dont want to change anything right now! I love living here, I love the new friends we found and I love our new life. But you kind of need to have those days because they make you realize that you left something important and that you still care.

I think I will never get rid of those days – and I might not even want to – but it helps a lot to understand whats happening. I actually got warned about those days by our friend Tanja. And now I would like to warn future emmigrants or people who might go through it right now. Dont let those days get you down. Dont let them ruin your dream! Just let them pass and try not to get to sad! Its natural to feel that way, it happens and sometimes it even helps me to not feel that guilty for leaving my friends and family behind.

I love you guys, I miss you and that will never change! No matter where I am!

It’s finally the time to really begin the preperations for our emigration. I am that kind of person that doesn’t like to wait. I always have to do things. So the last months kind of killed me, because you know that there is so much work to do, but also know that it is way to early to begin the work.

Last week I began to pack the first two boxes with my books and this week we packed a few more. An today the first piece of furniture had to move out. We emptied one of our cupboards and brought it over to my parents house. It finally also is clear where most of our furniture and stuff will go. To me this feels really good. Everything that I can get out of this flat is something that I don’t have to worry about any more. It also feels good that most of our stuff will move to family and friends.

Through all this stress I somehow forgot to get myself into the mood for christmas. So yesterday we took a little break from packing, working and worrying, invited some friends over and had a super nice Saturday baking cookies, eating delicious food and watching the National Lampoons christmas movie.

I want to get a lot off my to-do list before christmas, so stayed tuned in the next two weeks. We might take some serious steps forward!

We only have about eight weeks left till we board the plane to Los Angeles for good. Besides work, packing stuff, doing formal work and planning our first few months, there is one thing that takes up most of our time: Spending quality time with our family and friends. I’ve never been so busy with setting up dates for meetings with my friends before. We already do not have a single weekend left for ourselves or for packing in December. And all the friends we want to see didn’t even fit in our busy schedule yet.

Even if it is just the beginning of December, it already is the time to say farewell to some people, because we won’t see them again before we leave. The other weekend I went to my parents and attended a little dinner party they had with their best friends. These guys were the first to say good bye to me with the knowledge of not seeing me for what might be a very long time. Last weekend we visited some of Flo’s friends in Frankfurt and it is very likely that we won’t see them again till May when they will come out to California for a long planned vacation. My last day at work will be on December 21 and I than will have to say goodbye to the people I worked with for the last 12 months. And that long farewell list goes on and on for what feels like forever.

Even if I know that the real friendships we have will last even when we live in the US, it hurts me a lot to leave all those people behind. But maybe shedding all of my tears in the next eight weeks is not the worst idea at all. Because being sad and stressed out now may help me to be ready for some happiness when we finally arrive in LA. And I guess happiness is the thing I will need most in the first few weeks.