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Flo and I very rarely have those weird days on which we are kind of unsure, if this is really our life or if it is just another vacation. Today was one of those weird days. After helping our friend Scott move into his new home, we went to Whole Foods to grab a bite to eat. We sat on the Patio in the sun and ate and suddenly Flo said: “I just had the feeling that we are gonna fly back home to Germany soon and I am just here on vacation.” He actually spoke from my soul, because at that exact moment I felt exactly the same.

I think I have those days more often than he does. But for me it’s not only those moments that feel like vacation. I also have those what I call “thinking mistakes”. I for example think about something I wanna tell my parents about and will weirdly say to myself: “Don’t call them, you can just tell them when you get back home.” This happens to me every now and then and always leaves me kind of confused. I don’t know where those moments come from. Maybe, because I already adapted to my new surrounding so good that it is too fast for my brain? Or maybe it’s those moments where I miss my family and friends the most.

But no matter what it is, every time I have this feeling I am super relieved when I realize this is no vaction. It is my new life!

Today is christmas day in our new home. In our old home – where we spent the last two weeks – christmas eve was yesterday! Flo and I celebrated together with both our familys and had a wonderful time with a lovely dinner. Flo and I gave each other the trip to Germany for christmas. The trip was supposed to be a bit more relaxing, but we still had a great time with our family and friends.

Tomorrow – just in time for the end of christmas – Flo and I are gonna go home. Home now means going to Los Angeles for us. And yes, we already miss it like hell! This week I showed my dad some of the photos we took during the last year and really got homesick. Even if we only spent 11 months in the US so far, we both think that the decision to move there was the best we could make! A friend lately asked us, if we regret moving to Los Angeles sometimes. And we both honestly and without thinking too long said that we havent regreted it once so far!

Moving is not for everyone. Especially because you leave so many friends and your family behind. But for Flo and me it means the world to have the chance to live in Los Angeles. To be happy there and to have a second home!

I hope everyone had a great christmas, that you spent it with all the people you love and that you can start the new year happy and with a lot of dreams to fullfil!

Flo and I have been on our little german vacation for a little over a week now. I waited till now to write this first “german” post to be sure about my feelings for Germany. But now – after a week – I can honestly say: Moving to the US was the best decision I made in a long time. For sure I am beyond happy to see my family and friends, but I can’t say the same about Germany. Actually I am a little disappointed. I expected to come back to Germany and at least be a little nostalgic. But no, I am actually a little annoyed. And I already miss my new home LA.

I know that it’s a good sign that I miss my new home and not my old one. But I honestly never expected to feel like that about the country I lived in for the first 28 years of my life. Maybe it’s because I’ve just lived in the US for a little less than a year. But I feel like I found the place where I should be (at least for now). I think I never wrote about this, but since we moved to the US I feel way more comfortable, happy and relaxed. In Germany I always somehow felt pressure. To succeed, to do better or only to look better. That is something that I haven’t felt in a long time now. That’s probably, because we are successful in the US and because I fulfiled a lifelong dream of mine. But it makes me happy to see (again) that I have made the right decision.

With this knowledge I can enjoy my german vacation. But I also already look forward to go home! Home to the beach, home to our new friends and home to our new life. A new life which I honestly love!