Lately I have been in that what I call realizing phase a lot. I often catch myself feeling like I am on vacation or like this must be just a dream. This morning for example I woke up and kind of thought to myself tomorrow I will wake up at home again – at home in Germany. It feels really weird to go through this probably normal phase, because I feel home in the US already. But I still seem to be adapting to my new life a lot.
I mostly have those moments when I wake up, when I talk to my parents via Skype or when I am at the beach or in the Hills. In those moments our new life feels more than surreal and it surprises me that it usually feels so normal already. Still when people ask us how moving to a new country feels, I have to say that I don’t really feel like we immigrated to the US. We might as well just have moved to another city in Germany in my eyes. But being thousands of Miles away from home in a foreign country – this is absolutely not how it feels to me!
Even if we already feel home here, I sometimes wonder how long it’s gonna take until I don’t still mistake Germany for my home. And until I fully adapted to living here and don’t have those weird vacation-feely moments anymore. This is probably something every person that moves to a foreign country has to go through. But even if I slightly felt prepared for this, it still always takes me more than by surprise. And in those moments I really have to ask myself: Am I dreaming or is this dream reality?