Posts Tagged ‘wedding’

Since like the day of our last six months in Germany began, I am kind of waiting for the big panic to arrive. I wait for the first time I feel that this isn’t right, that I won’t bear to leave my family and friends and that the panic of not getting a job and living on the street will overwhelm me. But guess what: The panic seems to be busy with someone else, because it just doesn’t show up at my place!

Everytime I see Los Angeles on TV, hear songs that make me think of the US or talk to someone about it, I suddenly get so excited and happy. Yes, I sometimes am scared, because there is so much left for us to do. Because we have one hell of a journey in front of us. But I never feel afraid. I feel happy. Happier than I have been for a long time!

People always say that you know right away when you found your love. I actually were so lucky to find my true love and knew it very very early. Perhaps what I feel right now is just fate telling me that is what I have always been meant to do. That the US is my destiny. Shortly before Flo and I got married in 2009 I also sat there and waited. Waited for the panic of spending my life with one person to arrive. Waiting for myself to point out everything that might be wrong about our marriage plans. But that never happened. I never seriously considered calling off our engagement for a second!

I never was one to believe in fate. Not, because I don’t wanted to – I just never met fate! But now I know that fate exists! That fate leads us in the right directions and just gives us a feeling for what we have to do and what we better shouldn’t do! My fate was to marry Flo – so I did. My fate is to go to the Us – so I will! Perhaps I may meet panic on the way, but will it stop me? NO!

My best friend Petra came to visit for our wedding. I already wrote about Petra a lot, not only because she is my best friend but because she moved to London four years ago and is living there since. It helps a lot to have someone who made the experience of moving to another country themselves by your side, because those people understand your feelings and can be there for you in another way than other people can.

I told Petra that recently it bothers me a lot that everyone seems to know everything about moving to the US and wants to teach us their knowledge. The disturbing thing about it is, that all the people who try to teach me their lessons have never lived in the US or even better never been there. When I told Petra that, she only laughed, because she made this experience herself before she moved to London.

So, if you are in the lucky position of having a Greencard and plan to move in a few months or years, don’t let people bother you! This is your dream not theirs! You want to move and only you can make your experience and decide wether this dream is a good one or a bad one! Don’t let people scare you off! To quote my best friend: Do it your way and just live!

And what she laughed about the most: The people who now tell you not to go, because they may be jealous or scared to lose you, will be the first ones to visit you for a vacation and have the fun of their lifes in a land they always hated!

It took me a few days to calm down again after the whole stress before and at our wedding and to get all my feelings about the day, about our guests and about everything our friends did for us together. As you may imagine the whole theme of our wedding was the US and all the presents and suprises we received were based on that motto.

To start the day I took all my bridesmaides, my mom and my cousin to the hairdresser with me and we all got cute pin-up hairdos. Flo and his best man all wore Vans, simple pants and shirts and suspenders to the wedding. All of my bridesmaides wore black. In Germany it actually is not very common to have more than one maid of honor and more than one best man, so people already thought that our wedding was very special. A special thing actually was that our two best friends did the marriage ceremony. A band played Phantom Planet’s California in it and at the end we read our vows. Everything was very tearful and romantic. A guest even told me that there was a rainbow behind us during the ceremony.

After the ceremony we did our pictures, had a big BBQ and than opened the dancefloor. Our friends had prepared an USA quiz for us and later that night let fly LED-lighted ballons in red, white and blue for us. One of Flo’s best mans even built a super super cute model of the Hollywood Hill for us. The next day we saw our presents and laughed about every single one of them reffering to the US in some way.

I feel very blessed to have such great people in our lives and it surprisingly doesn’t make me sad very much to have seen them all together for the last time. Sure it is sad that we have to leave all this people very soon, but on the other hand we know that we have great people having our backs and supporting our dream. And that is one of the best feelings ever!

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